Remix

I'm feeling rather torn
Disjointed
Not knowing what
To do

And you would too.

My heart says one thing
My head
Well it says
Different

Nothing's etched in cement.

Maybe I should just
Go for
It the thing I truly
Desire

I do indeed aspire.

There is a good
Beginning
Here I'm getting rather
Strong

And yet it takes so long.

If it were up
to me
Well then I'd be sprinting
to you

Straight 'til you're in view.

But it is, up to me
That is
So maybe I should adjust
My mind

Stop waiting for a clearer sign.

It's time to seize my life it's
time
I'm tired of putting it on
Hold

I choose today to start growing old.

With you.

I Love Us

This week marks 8 months
That we have been us.
It's gone by fast,
But the separations
Go by so slow.

Learning to still have fun
While apart is like
Trying to breathe
Underwater, nevertheless
I'll do my best.

Love's my light in a
Sea of shadows,
Hold on tight I'm
Coming I'm running
As Fast as I can.

Toxic

My poison courses all around,
Spreading warmly through my veins,
Tracing its terror from my heart
And slowly back again.

No more will I infect you all,
Those who care and watch over me.
Instead I will hide it deep and away,
Protect you from the toxic sea.

They carry the precious antidote
In the palms of their tiny open hands,
Needing, wanting me to have it,
Kindly and freely offering and—

I stretch so long and far with all
The strength that I possess
I—reach, sometimes even catch it,
Salvation from the constant unrest.

But this is only for a moment
For all alone again, consumed
I wade in dark and murky waters
The bulk of my life in an empty room.

Iseut (English Translation)

From the moment of the potion’s touch
Delicate fingers rise to brush
Her quivering lips, light clearing the dim
A fresh pain she senses, the love of him

She sees in his eyes, calm before the storm
So deep are they, so courageous and warm
He renders Brown beautiful as never before
Giving life to the color that’s always ignored.

Circumstance fights with all its force
Nature wrestles with strength and resource
The Elements whirl about in aggression

But nothing can erase her undying passion
She loves him despite Them despite great distance
Love the victor, for them, pleasure’s ever immense.

Just Ask June

There’s no reason I shouldn’t be mad as hell,
Screaming at the gods or brewing a spell,
There’s no reason I shouldn’t shake my fists,
Drowning in endless planning and lists.

There’s no reason I shouldn’t curse the Earth,
Shouting profanities, for what they’re worth,
There’s no reason I shouldn’t just let go,
Let chance take me places I cannot yet know.

There’s no reason I shouldn’t cry every night,
Aching in agony, writhing in spite,
There’s no reason I shouldn’t just give in,
Allowing these burdens the hard earned win.

But I won’t ever let these things be so,
Or turn my back on what I surely know,
That you are the reason I’ll suffer it all
No matter how fast or how often I fall.

Instead I say let’s dive right in, head first,
Together I know we can conquer the worst
Of the hardships in life or the problems we’ll face,
Our epic love spans through time and through space.

So ignore them, those who told you to pause,
Keep the dream alive, believe in the cause,
The brevity of life should keep us going,
Not stopping for anything, always knowing

That the message is clear and has been all along
In all of our poems and in every song,
Our time is our own, so I say make haste and
Sing out: Let’s go, time’s a wastin’!

9-24-09

It’s one of those things
People expect you’ll just
Bounce
Right back, but you can’t.

They just don’t understand
Even if they do
They don’t.
It’s almost ineffable

The hurt we feel without him,
Two weeks later
Here I am crying all over
Again, I can’t stop

The world without him
Feels even more alone,
As if that were possible
Especially now, but somehow

It is.

The Spice to My Sugar

There is this girl
I know so well
And you, you know
Her too she’s
Always dance dance dancing
Life away with
Little to slow
Her down swirling
Whirling round
And round and
Round and

Well-
Perhaps that
Is
Just the way
She wants
You to see her
She
Can’t stop-
For a minute or
All falls
Apart she
Depends on
Me, depends on
Us.

She has a heart
Of gold, of gold
You know
She cares so much
It makes her cry
The tough exterior
And carefree way
Are merely guises
For the fragile
Soul that lies
Within and

So-
She’ll keep on
Keep on dancing
And try
Her very best
To be brave she
Keeps on keeps on
Dance
Dance dancing
Until she finds
The one
Brave enough to
Catch
Her.